This is getting ridiculous. I can't control my emotions anymore. "The things that used to comfort me don't comfort me anymore."
It's hard to deal with when you can't find the source.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Saturday, January 12, 2008
one by one
January 13, 2008
Things are at their breaking point for me. I always feel on edge these days. Mostly from being tired, I guess. First semester didn't go so well. Second semester isn't starting off too well. I'm hoping it's a phase, but I've been in this weird mood for the past couple of months. I'm not really moody or sad or anything, just bored. I want something to happen so bad. I hate waiting, it's the worst. I mean, I'll be 17 on Tuesday and have done NOTHING substantial. Vacation? It's surely in order. Spring Break. Maybe I'll invite maybe one or two friends and go somewhere. Here's the thing, though. Panama City Beach and getting completely shit-faced with a bunch of losers sparks no interest in me. Maybe I'll take the trip with only one person. I wish his parents would go for that. Probably not. What am I saying? My parents aren't going to go for that either. I wish I was 18.
I've been trying to figure out what is going on with me. I've lost interest in EVERYTHING school related. Even art and history, which I actually enjoyed learning. Actually, I've lost interest in just about everything. The hardest part about this is not knowing how to fix it. I have a vague idea about what MIGHT be causing it, but that seems like a problem that will never get fixed.
It's hormones. I bet that's it. It's always hormones.
help,
Casey
Things are at their breaking point for me. I always feel on edge these days. Mostly from being tired, I guess. First semester didn't go so well. Second semester isn't starting off too well. I'm hoping it's a phase, but I've been in this weird mood for the past couple of months. I'm not really moody or sad or anything, just bored. I want something to happen so bad. I hate waiting, it's the worst. I mean, I'll be 17 on Tuesday and have done NOTHING substantial. Vacation? It's surely in order. Spring Break. Maybe I'll invite maybe one or two friends and go somewhere. Here's the thing, though. Panama City Beach and getting completely shit-faced with a bunch of losers sparks no interest in me. Maybe I'll take the trip with only one person. I wish his parents would go for that. Probably not. What am I saying? My parents aren't going to go for that either. I wish I was 18.
I've been trying to figure out what is going on with me. I've lost interest in EVERYTHING school related. Even art and history, which I actually enjoyed learning. Actually, I've lost interest in just about everything. The hardest part about this is not knowing how to fix it. I have a vague idea about what MIGHT be causing it, but that seems like a problem that will never get fixed.
It's hormones. I bet that's it. It's always hormones.
help,
Casey
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