Thursday, July 19, 2007

One more time with feeling.

Has anyone else noticed that everyone is paired off? It's so wierd! Maybe it's a summer thing, but sheesh. It's hella lame for me :[ I'm kinda lonely, you know? Hmph.

I mean, I don't have trouble getting a boyfriend, its just that once I do, things change. You know me, I don't like change.

I feel really lame writing this, but it's true! I just want to feel some kind of affection for someone/ someone feels that way for me. Is that too much to ask?

My problem is, I don't like to put a ton of effort into a relationship and I think that's my downfall. I don't bother making myself look drop dead gorgeous, because it just can't be done. It's not a confidence thing, its the truth. Also, when the relationship feels like its slipping away, I let it. This was why my last one failed.

I want to be with someone right now. He knows this [i think]. It's complicated, but my gut is telling me just to go for it. Maybe I should listen to it and stop being such a pussy. I hate feeling vulnerable.


-scout was here.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hey not everyone is paired off... You, Robert, Jeremiah, Roddy, Louis, Chris... see that's like the majority of the Gang right there.