There's at least five different medications flowing through my bloodstream right now. I don't even feel myself. I'm here at school, but I'm not actually here. Colors are duller. Movements are slower. What may be heard as shouts to others are just whispers to me.The whole class is in the studio right now. I'm sitting behind this computer screen.
Something isn't right.
Where is my mind?
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
eat, sleep, repeat
I'm trying so, so hard not to fall for you again.
It's difficult, but entirely possible. I'm not going to let myself get attached, therefore I'm not letting myself get played.
Cause your words hit like a train
and I can't ignore it
This moment could be our last
You fall in love and I'm running after
You move way too fast
But don't slow down
And don't let go
Hold me close now, lest I fall
They say I don't know how to
love the right way
But you make me feel, you
make me feel like I do
Hopeless, no. But at least I've given up fighting for you.
The result, however, is me; alone again.
-casey
It's difficult, but entirely possible. I'm not going to let myself get attached, therefore I'm not letting myself get played.
Cause your words hit like a train
and I can't ignore it
This moment could be our last
You fall in love and I'm running after
You move way too fast
But don't slow down
And don't let go
Hold me close now, lest I fall
They say I don't know how to
love the right way
But you make me feel, you
make me feel like I do
Hopeless, no. But at least I've given up fighting for you.
The result, however, is me; alone again.
-casey
Saturday, February 7, 2009
they jokingly nicknamed it the porridge
While I'm waiting on this video to finally upload, I'll update this thing.
I'm taking into account, the things that are important to me. There's an order we use, subconsciously and consciously, and we arrange things according to importance to us. My list is...barren.
The most important thing to me is feeling important to not only a girlfriend or boyfriend, but to myself.
And I've learned that you can't seek for that importance in the amount of friends you have, the kind of clothes you wear, the kind of car you drive, or false hopes of acceptance.
So starting now, these days are mine. The things that make me happy and feel important to myself will be the main focus. Life is TOO SHORT to stress. I don't want to waste "the best years of my life" wondering if things could have been better. I'm going to kill brain cells, listen to shitty music, drink all the soda and eat all the candy I want, and not care if you and your morals disagree.
now i'm going to the park to play guitar with brody.
-casey
I'm taking into account, the things that are important to me. There's an order we use, subconsciously and consciously, and we arrange things according to importance to us. My list is...barren.
The most important thing to me is feeling important to not only a girlfriend or boyfriend, but to myself.
And I've learned that you can't seek for that importance in the amount of friends you have, the kind of clothes you wear, the kind of car you drive, or false hopes of acceptance.
So starting now, these days are mine. The things that make me happy and feel important to myself will be the main focus. Life is TOO SHORT to stress. I don't want to waste "the best years of my life" wondering if things could have been better. I'm going to kill brain cells, listen to shitty music, drink all the soda and eat all the candy I want, and not care if you and your morals disagree.
now i'm going to the park to play guitar with brody.
-casey
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